Ladies and Gentlemen, it is with great pride that I sit here and write this special edition blog announcing the ePublication of my debut novel, The Loyal Heart. Yay!
And there was much rejoicing.
After all the hoopla of last-minute editing and formatting and the nail-biting associated with uploading the blasted thing to all the important sites at long last I was exhausted. Thoroughly and completely exhausted. Who would have thought that sitting in front of a computer screen all day would be so physically and mentally taxing? It’s true though, however much work you think it’s going to be, it’s going to be more work than that. But now it’s up there. My baby is all grown up and off on its own in the world.
And now I am faced with the singular sensation of being back at square one. Yep. I’ve got a novel that needs writing. Hmm. Yeah. I should probably get around to doing that. Especially since the novel I just published is the first in a trilogy. Gosh, I sort of seriously committed to doing this whole crazy process all over again at least two more times, didn’t I. And the second book, The Faithful Heart, is just sitting there on my computer begging and whining for me to work on it.
Hello, Square One, good to be back here again.
As great as the sense of accomplishment that comes with publishing a book is, it is a far more fleeting thing than I ever could have imagined. I mean, it took me about ten minutes after clicking “publish” to start to feel anxious and guilty because I wasn’t actively writing. The riddles and mysteries of the everlasting phenomenon that is the Work in Progress were already knocking on my door as my brother and best friend took me out for some celebratory ice cream. Once again my mind was slipping off to that place where it goes to figure out plot problems as they were trying to talk to me. Yeah, people should know by now that it’s useless to talk to me when I’m in those moods.
But there’s also a new kind of worry. It’s the heart-stopping anxiety that tells me “what if that’s it?” I’m so proud of The Loyal Heart. Can I really do that again? Can lightning strike a second time? A third? A fourth? I mean, we’ve all heard the stories of Writers who wrote one book, published it, and then dried up. Does that really happen? Does the well really run dry or does fear put a giant plug in it? I’m banking on the fact that any trepidation I feel is just temporary. I mean, I have a draft of The Faithful Heart written already, and even though I’m drastically rewriting a bunch of it, I have done this before. Not to mention the two novels in my sci-fi series that are already drafted and the one and a half novels of my Montana, 1895 series that are finished. Oh, and the giant file of notes and summaries for about two dozen other stories sitting in the corner of my living room. Yes, I can do this again. I can start over. The time has come to pull that thought to the forefront.
The one resounding point that I’m taking out of this experience is that it’s a never-ending cycle. It’s Writer Reincarnation. One book reaches the end of the cycle and releases you, the author, to begin the cycle again. The process itself is poetry. And once again, all the pain and frustration, irritation with things not coming together and out-and-out writer’s block, all the joy of figuring it out and the pleasure of each second spend absorbed with your characters and their world is back again. I gotta tell ya, it’s pure bliss with all its warts and blushes.
So here I go, back to the grindstone to somehow perform a second miracle and turn out the second book in The Noble Hearts series, The Faithful Heart. Wish me luck!
No, on second thought, don’t wish me luck. Go buy The Loyal Heart instead. 😉
Link for Kindle Version: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B005R4K75W
Link for Smashwords Version (which covers everything else): http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/92993